I don't know what's happening to me today, I just can’t explain it. Suddenly I felt jealous for no reason at all but got to managed it and realized that it was not worth to ruin my day just for this absurd thing.
And then found myself staring blankly and tears begun to fall in my eyes thinking about my 2 nephews in Philippines who were living alone without the presence of their parents. I am worried, bothered thinking about their whereabouts, their condition and their plights. My heart shatters whenever I think of them. Who shall I blame? I was thinking that life is so unfair. Why these things should happen to my nephews. They don't have the father to look after to everyday that they have problems, when things go wrong; who shall they approach? who shall protect them?, who shall guide them since they were still young?
I don't know if I shall blame my sister for she left her kids at such a young age. She should have fought harder for her kids and she shouldn't let her cancer end her life. I am sorry if I am thinking this way, I know I am not getting rational in the way I am thinking but till now I could not comprehend these things. I still can’t accept her passing. My nephews had their father but it seems he's invisible and unreal for he's too far from them if they want them anytime that they needed him. I felt so sad and depressed; they're too young to experience these things.
Yes, I know my parents are there and can protect them, love them and guide them, but still the real presence of a family is what they need. I have taken the responsibility as their parent with no regrets. When my sister entrusted her kids to me and when she told me that I should exceed the love that she had given to them, I promised that I will never leave them, that I will take care of them and love them as much as I can and do my best though I am far from them.
There are no days that I am not thinking of my sister. I missed her so much, I love her so much and her kids. I may have done wrong towards her but the love I had for her will never fade. I am too sorry for all the wrong things I have done to her and may the lord bless her soul.
Wherever you are now, I want to let you know that I will keep my promises to you and will always love your kids.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
When Love Prevails
We all have ideal mates, we dream of them, we try to look for their qualities in people that we meet and sometimes if we find them, we stalk them hoping that they glance our way and hope that cupid has his bow and arrow ready. We hope and pray that we’ll all find our knight-in-shining armor and wish that he’ll be tall, dark and handsome until reality sets in.
Falling in love can be such a wonderful experience and sometimes it can be so intense that you become a different person. Your thoughts, feelings and actions can rule everything in your life. There are times when you are on ‘cloud nine’, and refuse to come down to reality. I am sure that I am not alone when I say that falling in love is the greatest experience; especially when encompassed with passion, the same mind thought and every moment is treated like there is no tomorrow. You can’t get enough of each other and when you are apart, your stomach goes all tight and you can’t eat or sleep.
Love is a major part of life, and should be handled with care, not treated like an easy game to win or lose. For those who have found their soul mate, treat them with respect, kindness and honesty. For those of you still searching, do not give up, at times it may seem hopeless, but God works his wonders in mysterious ways, and has a plan and partner for everyone.
Love as far as I know, is what a person feels for another without any kind of physical or mental barrier between them. They live purely to be with the other to share experiences, pleasures, problems and pain. It’s the one feeling that makes one feel like they are stuck in a dream. You feel like you’re on top of the world, and nobody can stop you. With love there comes a sense of numbness, that sense that you cannot actually believe what is happening because it seems to be impossible that this is what is actually going on. Being with the person you have longed to be with for so long is such an overwhelming feeling. Of course, as with everything, there is a down side to love as well if it doesn’t work out as it so certainly should have. The fair truth is that love hurts. Not like a physical pain, or even like the pain of a big disappointment. It is a form of pain so overwhelming that it is like love itself in the sense that it occupies all of your thoughts, your time and the totality of you as a person.
They say that love is blind but I beg to disagree with this cliché because I believe love opens up our eyes to the beauty of each person and enables us to see their shortcomings. I believe everyone has a certain, special someone and for those who don’t have they may find someone eventually perfectly suited for them. Everything happens for a reason, even if the reason seems a bit cloudy or uncertain at first. Follow your heart and trust yourself to make right decisions, but do not give your heart out quickly to any passersby.
God created the human race to love one another, and care for each other. That is the blessing of being a human. We are able to control our thoughts and feelings, but cannot help who we fall in love with.
Falling in love can be such a wonderful experience and sometimes it can be so intense that you become a different person. Your thoughts, feelings and actions can rule everything in your life. There are times when you are on ‘cloud nine’, and refuse to come down to reality. I am sure that I am not alone when I say that falling in love is the greatest experience; especially when encompassed with passion, the same mind thought and every moment is treated like there is no tomorrow. You can’t get enough of each other and when you are apart, your stomach goes all tight and you can’t eat or sleep.
Love is a major part of life, and should be handled with care, not treated like an easy game to win or lose. For those who have found their soul mate, treat them with respect, kindness and honesty. For those of you still searching, do not give up, at times it may seem hopeless, but God works his wonders in mysterious ways, and has a plan and partner for everyone.
Love as far as I know, is what a person feels for another without any kind of physical or mental barrier between them. They live purely to be with the other to share experiences, pleasures, problems and pain. It’s the one feeling that makes one feel like they are stuck in a dream. You feel like you’re on top of the world, and nobody can stop you. With love there comes a sense of numbness, that sense that you cannot actually believe what is happening because it seems to be impossible that this is what is actually going on. Being with the person you have longed to be with for so long is such an overwhelming feeling. Of course, as with everything, there is a down side to love as well if it doesn’t work out as it so certainly should have. The fair truth is that love hurts. Not like a physical pain, or even like the pain of a big disappointment. It is a form of pain so overwhelming that it is like love itself in the sense that it occupies all of your thoughts, your time and the totality of you as a person.
They say that love is blind but I beg to disagree with this cliché because I believe love opens up our eyes to the beauty of each person and enables us to see their shortcomings. I believe everyone has a certain, special someone and for those who don’t have they may find someone eventually perfectly suited for them. Everything happens for a reason, even if the reason seems a bit cloudy or uncertain at first. Follow your heart and trust yourself to make right decisions, but do not give your heart out quickly to any passersby.
God created the human race to love one another, and care for each other. That is the blessing of being a human. We are able to control our thoughts and feelings, but cannot help who we fall in love with.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Fallin For You
Many will chase and run after you
Expression of affection and intent will surround you
Promises uttered, sweet words flies in the air
Endearing words used as bait
To purposely sway and ensnare you
Falling on these things you don’t permit
Cause you’re different from the rest
Sincerity and honesty is what you value
From the person who will truly cares for you.
You truly deserve the qualities bestowed upon you
And for humbly taking compliments
From those who likes you
And this makes them fall for you
There’s a person who is truly happy
From the moment they have met
Since then that person lingers to see him
Bothered and unspoken
Whenever in front of him
Dormant feelings become active
After years of getting broken
Unexpected to be reciprocated
For he was snobbish then when first met him
No regrets if you will fall for him
For he truly appreciate the things you do for him
Which you will surely cherish
When the moment comes that
You have to depart from him
written by: coy
Expression of affection and intent will surround you
Promises uttered, sweet words flies in the air
Endearing words used as bait
To purposely sway and ensnare you
Falling on these things you don’t permit
Cause you’re different from the rest
Sincerity and honesty is what you value
From the person who will truly cares for you.
You truly deserve the qualities bestowed upon you
And for humbly taking compliments
From those who likes you
And this makes them fall for you
There’s a person who is truly happy
From the moment they have met
Since then that person lingers to see him
Bothered and unspoken
Whenever in front of him
Dormant feelings become active
After years of getting broken
Unexpected to be reciprocated
For he was snobbish then when first met him
No regrets if you will fall for him
For he truly appreciate the things you do for him
Which you will surely cherish
When the moment comes that
You have to depart from him
written by: coy
Longing for your Love
Im holding you in my dreams
every night that im sleeping
the beauty of your face
keeps appearing in my dreams
Whenever I wake up from the
profundity of silence sleep
its your affectionate presence
I linger to embrace and foresee
The sun rises shining thru my face
the gentle wind blows caressing my senses
same as you that runs throughout my veins
passionately invading my broken heart for years
My inspiring day shall commence
with the picture of you in my head
when I have loved you my day never ceases
longing for your conditional love and kindness.
My day will never end without your existence
Your uttered loving promises kept me gripping
hope for the day to embrace you completely
and share the love I had with you certainly.
written by: coy
Holiday Escapade
I just wanted to share our pictures which were taken in various places of Khobar during our Eid Holiday Vacation. We enjoyed our short stay there and had fun with the rest of the guys. It was a lovely experience for us to explore its place and got more time to unwind ourselves.
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